Day 38 and fruit comes into my life!!!!!

Singing!! I am singing! Fruit! Thank GOD! I am eating fruit! Hold on to your seats, yes, it's true, I actually ate blueberries and blackberries and my blood sugar was under 120!! Yessirreeey. That's what I'm talking about.

So I went to the Earth Day Celebration at the Farmer's Market on Saturday and there they were. Blue, round, beautiful and delicious blueberries. Could I chance it? What would happen? Would I blow it all on some delightfully sinful blue delectables?? Worth the risk, I thought. Grabbing the berries and paying an astronomical price, I stuffed them into my bag and prayed I wasn't making a huge mistake.

As I ate almost the entire box of them, I patiently waited the two hours to see what the results would be and beat the band, NORMAL BLOOD SUGAR!!! YES! Talk about thrilling. Then I went to Sybelle's party and, God forbid, ate blackberries. Again, as soon as I got home I got out the blood monitor and........119! Can it be? Can it possibly be that I my blood sugar is normalizing?

When I began this the raw food adventure, I guess I never really realized how much I would have to focus on myself. All this exercising, all this testing, all the worry over what I eat, all the reading and certainly, up until now I have been completely and totally unaccustomed to thinking about myself and my health with this kind of intensity. I do hope that I will not have to continue on in this manner forever and that there will come a time when I am able to be more relaxed and natural about food. But it has been an adventure, that's for sure.

On another note, I ate my first hot food in 36 days the other day in Tucson. As you can imagine, I've pretty much had it with eating only raw/cold food. Chloe and I went to a vegan restaurant and I broke down and had vegan chili. Now for those of you wagging your finger, that isn't cheating. The definition of a raw food diet is 80% raw. So obviously with this being the first hot thing I'd eaten in 36 days, I think I have filled the 80% quota. You have absolutely no idea how wonderful that tasted. I am planning on having something hot/cooked about once a week now and see how that goes. In my food bible, once I have stable blood sugar, I can have some hot food as long as it is vegan. I live for it.

Well that's all the news that's fit to print. Wish it were more exciting. But if you are into the adventures of a wild red headed woman and her path to self healing, I guess this makes for ok reading. Until next time...........

Guess what's for dinner? (Now you don't know, because I can have fruit! YEA HAW!)

Day 29..........

I continue on! Yes, I made the Day 21 and made it off insulin. The bad news being that I had to go back on insulin, only 8 units, for about another week until again, I am completely off. You can't beat that with a stick, huh?? I ended up eating that heavenly grapefruit, and it was heaven, and my blood sugar went way up. But I ate other stuff with it, so I ended up eating the other half the other day, and guess what?!? Nothing! No bad reactions. I was so impressed!

Now I have gone down a full dress size, so that's pretty neat, and I can wear all my skinny clothes. (Honestly, I don't have that many skinny clothes, but the few I have kept for a long, long, long time all fit! Hee, hee!) Not that I am anywhere near skinny, but at least I am down some and it feels great to have that reward.

Being brave enough to have grapefruit, I feel like in the next week or so I will branch out to berries. I dearly love them, and with the grapefruit success, I think I will be fine. For the party tonight, THANK YOU MARTHA, I found a fabulous salad I am bringing and no one will be the wiser. Mango, pear, cucumber, and radish salad dressed with lime juice and agave nectar. Really excellent. No one will have a clue that it's vegan raw, and I will have something wonderful to eat! Unfortunately, I am pretty boring with food, although I did find a recipe for mushroom burgers, raw of course, and they were totally delicious. Dr. Cousens doesn't like mushrooms, buy hey, I can't be perfect. And they do not raise blood sugar. I have to live a little, don't you think?

Most days I eat a lot of tomatoes and not near enough greens. I have found them to be almost repulsive. My garden is thriving, so soon I will have super fresh lettuce and that ought to help me quite a bit. Thank GOD for the juicer as I put a bunch of greens in the juicer, along with the tomatoes, and make a fabulous homemade V-8. Love it. Looks awful. Tastes divine. I love V-8 anyway, so it's an easy one for me to drink down.

So I'm going to a party tonight and would love a glass of wine, but I am going to abstain as I feel it is too early in the game to be heading in that direction. I've done so well.......

Here are the numbers.......waking in the 150's. Still too high, but hell, no insulin, so no complaining. I've had after meal numbers from 119 to 160. All under 180 which seems to be the magic number for diabetics. Next goal is to get the morning down to 100 or under, and the afters consistently under 120. My doctor is going to shit when I tell him I'm taking nothing and have these numbers. It really does feel like an accomplishment. I know he'll never say I'm cured, but if I can keep this up for a year or so, maybe I'll never have to ever take anything again and just control it through diet. That is the goal.......

So on I go...... continuing forward......

Guess what's for dinner?

Day 22.... Now what?

More of the same. That's what! Nothing exciting, but some time this weekend I am going to have a grapefruit. I live for it. I will pick a time that my blood sugar is "normal" and see what the effect is. If it encourages me to have high blood sugar then obviously I won't be doing that again. But I am going to try it. I had hummus the other day and that didn't seem to hurt me. It's "allowed" but I had not ventured into the hummus world for fear I would goof things up.

I have discovered I am not a huge green fan. I like lettuce and spinach fine, but that's about it. I need to branch out. I have pulled out lots of raw food recipes and made a bunch of stuff, but it's not all that different tasting since it's all pretty much the sos. No complaints, but I need some different tastes, and fruit can be a life saver for me right now.

Having little to say, I'll make this one short and I'll check back in with more interesting comment. I am somewhat in a coma right now, it's early, and my brain is toast. TOAST? Did someone say toast?? Sigh.............

Guess what's for breakfast?

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!

Tomorrow is day 21. Can you believe it?? I haven't cheated even one time and really, it hasn't been that bad. Blood sugar is way, way, way down, but I did have to add 8 units of the long acting. Seems after every little bit of insulin was out of me, my body kinda went crazy. But that's ok. Better than the 60 I was taking. So now I am weaning down again to see how it goes.

Went to Tucson to one of my favorite restaurants, even when I did eat meat I loved going to the Lovin Spoonfuls. It's a great vegan restaurant. LOVE IT! The kids went with me and were less than impressed, but hey, they are kids. I got to eat hummus for the first time in a month. I snuck in my own crackers, shhhh don't tell, and didn't eat the pita bread, and that hummus couldn't have been more divine if it was chocolate. Ahhhhhh. Loved it. And with that I had a big bowl of..................you guessed it! Salad.

Now I am experiencing a strange phenomenon. I am not loving salad. In fact, I am a bit repulsed by it. Hopefully that will not last. Tonight I decided to branch out more because my dehydrator came, thank you GOD!!! And I am making "neat balls". They aren't bad. Taste nothing like meat, but they are pretty good. Plus, since I got my dehydrator, I am going to attempt potato chips. Sounds good. I'll use sweet potato chips so that ought to be a new taste sensation.

So I read and re-read my book, and unfortunately, I do not believe I will be able to have fruit with any regularity for about 3 months. Sigh. BUT I am going to have one grapefruit this weekend. Yep. I am. Get over it! I don't want to cheat, cheat, so I'm going to have just one grapefruit. Being a low glycemic fruit, it ought not to bother me too bad, so I'm gonna do it. Think of it as preventative medicine to keep me on the straight and narrow. Better than chocolate or wine or God forbid, steak, right!!?!

So here are the numbers. Still hanging in the 150's in the a.m. sigh. and still hanging in the 150's after a meal. BUT I did get into the 140's a few times after meal and that's exciting. I continue to work out 4-5 times a week. Hard. Sweating hard. So Bill says I'm looking good. AND I even went to the gym when I was the only one going. No Bill, no workout buddy, (that means you, Dawn : ) and no curly haired son. Just me! So I guess a little pat on the back is deserved.

Anyway, there it is. OH, and I almost forgot. My neighbor saw my facebook and made a point of calling me to tell me how proud she was of me. Considering she thinks my husband is the anti-christ, I think that was pretty special.

Guess what's for .............breakfast!?